LIving in harmony with nature

I knew from an early age the world around me was magic. I was a very spirited child,  always animated and full of energy. My Mother told me I had witchy hair, and I do. My grandfather- a chemistry teacher , told me of a coming time where people would return to self awareness, and in doing so would be able to bend energy at will. He told me about Nicola Tesla and Jose Silva. He also grew tomatoes under copper pyramids in the middle of the harshest winter conditions on earth. When he passed away I was 12. When my grandmother left their house, I took home many of his books. They spoke about subjects such as the law of attraction, spell casting and telepathy. I was fascinated , and began to practice my craft.

In high school I experimented with subliminal messaging , telepathy and the occult. I really freaked out a few of my friends and also myself. I once buried a ouija board in a salt circle. I remember exactly how it felt when it became very obvious some of the things I was willing were coming true. 

I grew frustrated and angry as a teen, and I wasn't aware of why until I became an adult. I was restless,   didn't get along with my parents and I was just not calm in my body. I ended up packing my bags and leaving home to pursue a degree in visual communications.

Being in art school my whole world changed seemingly overnight. I felt at home and felt a sense of purpose I had never had previously. I finally had an outlet for all my extra energy. So much came out of me in those years, including a lot of tears and big releases. 

Studying the history of art opened my eyes to the potentials around me, there was so much to see that had been hidden. I became even more enthralled with the ideas of symbolism, occultism and I was just so fascinated seeing so much visual representation of what had happened before on the planet. There were ways of living and being and knowing that people operated their lives by, long before what we had ever been told in the world i was living in.  I questioned and read.

I had met the love of my life and we got married and moved onto our acreage. It was absolute magic waking up every morning to him and to nature all around me. It still is and I am grateful every morning for it. Having grown up in the city I had never really even seen a cow up close. We had our first baby and worked tirelessly to plant trees, grass and to set up irrigation. We are very proud of what we've built here, it's been an enormously rewarding endeavour.

I had set up a business venture in hopes of staying home with my babies and working from the acreage. It was my first start up attempt and it didn't work out as planned. I took the lessons and moved on. 

Having my plan fall through left me feeling sort of empty. I had a two year old and no idea what direction I wanted to go professionally. I grew sort of depressed for a time. At the same time I had let myself fall into this state of being, I also began to have some of the most bizarre and paranormal experiences of my life. My dogs began barking at nothing and wouldn't use the stairs in our home. I saw people and lights and things that weren't there almost daily. Objects would move around me and I could feel other presences beside me. I made a call to spiritual healer type of person, not knowing what to expect.

The woman I called blew my mind. She helped me to clear the energy in my space, now a practice I have learned is necessary for me almost daily. She connected me with my guides and did an etheric cord cutting on me. I now preform such things for others, on occasion. She knew I was an artist, she knew about my past traumas, she knew I was carrying other peoples burdens. She told me my guides said must resume my creative practices immediately because it's what my soul is here for. A bawled my eyes out. She was so right, mothers have to set themselves aside for a time when they have babies and I hadn't painted or pursued anything creative in years. I felt all the weight I was carrying float away overnight. The harmony in my home returned and the next morning I painted an image that years later become published on the front of her book about opening up to spirit.

As I allowed myself to return into a creative space, ideas and art seemed to flow out of me. It seemed that whatever I had left behind opened up channels within myself I had not yet had access to. I became increasingly more aware of my own clairvoyance and grew able to connect with others who had passed. I would practice mediumship on strangers and was growing increasingly more sensitive to foods and energies. I learnt how to clear, ground and shield my energy. I traded smoking for yoga and meditation and my body craved foods that were full of high vibrations. Starting to grow our food was inevitable.

I began to read and research the world of permaculture and developed an interest in the organic food industry. I was quick to discover a lot of shocking facts about the food supply. I took courses and exchanged ideas.  I discovered the existence of regenerative farming and closed loop farming systems. I learned a lot of lessons about the food industry and about business in general. 

In the meantime my garden had continued to flourish. Every year I would try and every year brought success and failure but I was learning. I experimented with vermiculture and aquaponics, I learnt about canning, preservation and seeds.  I made it a family event and grew to know the importance of passing on simple skills. 

I  synchronized with the moon. As a gardener I learned the importance of this and that my cycle, the natural moon cycles and garden cycles were one and the same. Intention became everything. I spent hundreds of days mindfully planting and tending to the things we had created. In doing so, I was also tending to my own energy until one day I felt comfortable calling myself witch. It felt strange at first, but it was less about becoming something different, and more that I remembered who I already was. 

There is a very real magick that occurs when you begin to zero in on your intentions. Growing food is one way of doing this. I absolutely believe the food I grow delivers my intentions of health and wellness into the cells of those who consume it because everything is energy. 

As the world continues to sort itself out, I will be focused on action. This pivotal time in history is an open invitation to all of us to focus on moving humankind forward. It is now our time to come together as communities to find solutions and rebuild our failing systems to benefit all. I am happy to collaborate with like minds and pass on my skills, out of the broom closet. It is with enormous gratitude that I tread lightly on this earth, in this lifetime.

As I will it, so it is. Blessed be.